Memoirs of an ex broke single student

A letter to the future fam pt 2

2012-01-20T15:57:00.000-08:00

This is a letter to my future wife

I thank God everyday for making you wife

I promise to be there for you

To be around and show you that I truly care for you

And at times we may not always agree

But I promise that we'll sort it out before we sleep

I thank God for the things that we've been through

I read Proverbs 31 and I see u

Real beauty and a personality

And when I get in mood swings your never mad at me

There's nothing i'd change, your perfect

And all the gifts that I give, u deserve it

Through the thick, through the thin I will love you

And I will never put another soul above you

Bone of my bone, flesh of my flesh

The only thing separating us will be death

I love you

Letters to my future family. Part 1

2012-01-17T06:50:00.000-08:00

A poem for my daughter

This here's a letter to my future girl

No matter age your age you'll always be daddy's little girl

I promise to be there for you

To be around and truly show you that I care for you

And at times, daddy may seem so hard

Like I won't let boys come to the yard!

Daddy was a boy once, he knows what their like

Can't be having any guy steal like his little prize

And when you need me, I will not desert you

And I will never ever let a boy hurt you

Take time, feast on the word

And in everything put CHRIST first

When you cry, daddy cries too

And when you smile daddy smiles too

But those smiles will outweigh the cries

You will always be daddy's little prize

I love you

Count it all joy..........

2012-01-04T07:34:00.000-08:00

Work is so long and stressful!

But after the feeding of the homeless, ive purposed to not complain about it

Soo............

Thank God for a job :)

ARGHHHHH

2012-01-04T05:01:00.000-08:00

In the 2 last days, ive wrote posts and each time on posting bloggers signed out!

Lost them both!

My spirit is feeling vexated!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHH

2012 so far

2012-01-03T02:22:00.000-08:00

O blog, how I hath missed thee!

Its been a while since ive visited the blogosphere.

Whats new?

A few days ago, i had the oppurtunity to hit the streets of central London and feed the homeless with a few of the brothers n sisters from church. It was an amazing yet emotional experience.
Ther general conception is that the homeless are a good for nothing bunch of bums. Yes, a number of them do choose to not move on in life, but my recent visit dispelled the previous notion. We meet a former soldier (served for 12 years) as well as former IT/electornics worker.

All of them had a story....

Sad stories.

I recall asking one of the guys whether her went to church. He replied "I dont wanna go because I smell".

Emotional.

Shouldnt the church be the one place in society, where one should be able to go without fear of judgement? It got me thinking, imagine if he'd come to my church and sat next to me? What would I be like?
Would I shake his hand heartily and welcome him or would I be the sort of person to move away from him?

In essence........would I be a modern day pharisee?

#food4thought

It wasnt called a GREAT commision for no reason! The harvest is ripe!

Time to thrust the sickles in!

Leggooooooooooo

Thoughts....

2012-01-03T02:14:00.000-08:00

Its crazy, how somehow these youngers they look up to me
And now the olders thank the LORD for what he's done for me

But sometimes I wonder, would they still treat me the same
If they could see the thoughts running through this troubled brain

I had it with a smile, soI guess I pay the price
But would they still phone my phone just to get advice?

2011-12-13T15:44:00.001-08:00

Slowly learning, that i gotta focus on Christ

Walk by faith, not by sight

2011-12-04T13:25:00.000-08:00

Bloods boiling again

.....and I wonder, If it weren't for salvation, what would i have just done?

Sent

2011-11-22T07:10:00.000-08:00

Was shown this video last week. Was so touched by it.

Didnt know the guy, but I was touched by his loss. And to think he lost it, whilst doing Gods work!!! Salute!

I recall a poem I performed at youth camp this year.....

Im sorry Lord, forgive my ungreatfulness

Help me do what i can do to ease the pain and stress

If its the streets of London, or the tropics of Brazil

Help me give all up and submit to your will

I love Him far better than in days of yore
I'll serve Him more truly than ever before,
I'll do as He bids me, whatever the cost,
I'll be a true soldier, I'll die at my post.

Cankerworms, Caterpillars and Palmerworms

2011-11-22T01:11:00.000-08:00

Had an awesome prayer meeting at church yesterday. The person leading the prayer quoted a popualr verse from Joel 2

25And I will restore to you the years that the locust hath eaten, the cankerworm, and the caterpiller, and the palmerworm, my great army which I sent among you.

26And ye shall eat in plenty, and be satisfied, and praise the name of the LORD your God, that hath dealt wondrously with you: and my people shall never be ashamed.

27And ye shall know that I am in the midst of Israel, and that I am the LORD your God, and none else: and my people shall never be ashamed.

The first verse in particular struck a chord with me. Ive wasted years from being trapped in a life of sin. Couldve been in a much better position in so many ways.

Sigh

I was speaking to one of my girls from uni before the prayer, and she was reminding me of things id got up to! She wasnt exactly a goody-2-shoes, so i made a point to also remind her of her prior life too (we were bantering/joking) ! But i remeber remarking that i was ashamed of that life, and she scolded me for having that mentality. That we should be greatful to god for bringing us out of it!

God times best I guess.................And the end of the passage instils hope! and ends with "my people shall never be ashamed".

CLAIM CLAIM CLAIM CLAIM CLAIM CLAIM CLAIM

I kno Gods got big things in store for me

*dances*

Offences must occur part 1

2011-11-21T04:19:00.000-08:00

Paul once told me there must be issues within church to show who's approved (slighty paraphrased). In the last 2 weeks my eyes have been opened to importance/relevance of this verse. I've been searching high and low for the verse, but cant find it anywhere! Starting to think i may have even made it up!!!!

Nowadays its like people are failing to realise the power of the tongue. Im seriously praying for God to increase my threshold. Even today, more than one issue happened that irked me! And I get this urge to throw them som `glasses of discernment `. Whatever happened to thinking before talking? This shouldnt even just be on a spiritiual tip, but there's just some things you dont say in general, talk less in the church.

Rick Warren described these people as `EGN` - Extra Grace Needed! Being around them requires fresh induement of grace from above! There the sort of people who make you think, why did I even bother come church today?......And then it hits you, I CAME FOR JESUS NOT THEM!!!!

Even as i write this i'm reminded of a situation a few weeks ago, where i offended someone with my words.....And then my human mind argues and says "but Joe, your still young in the faith....whereas those now doing these things have been saved for years".........And then a voice says "Spiritual maturity isnt based on how long youve been saved nor the amount of bible verses you know from memory"

Im just praying that I dont ever act in a way that could potentially dissuade someone from coming church, or even worse be a Christian. I think if we all had that mentality, life would be much different..........But like Bro.Paul said in the focus verse, things will happen regardless. I guess its our response to these issues which truly determines the outcome.

offences must occur to show who's approved

Am i approved?

Offences must occur part 2

2011-11-20T15:46:00.000-08:00

So since joining this walk, there's been one occasion, when i really considered leaving it. To be honest I cant even remember the situation that made me feel this way to be precise but i know it was surrounding something in church :-(

But i remember, someone who i'd never really spoken too, (apart from the odd hi and bye) came up to me and she said the most beautiful words of encouragement. I remember after the convo, thinking WOOW! Confirmation from above! Keep on this path.

She's left the country now, but I got the opportunity to email and thank her last week, and also inform her of how God had used her mightily. Ima share some excerpts from her reply, as i believe it can relate to all!

"I supposed that was God's way of reminding you of the promises you made to him when you gave your life to him. But do not be worried even if the storm tends to be so stormy that you think its high time you move away, No, that actually calls for higher dedication to his service, alright.

Well, i do thank God because it may seem like little but it becomes much when God is in it.

Thank God for your life but one thing is emphatically stressed; your stand for CHRIST.

Be sure of what you doing, stand and when you think you are standing, hold fast do not let go.

Ayo, continue in faith of our Lord Jesus Christ, he cares about you so much that no one can care as much as he does, not even your earthly Parents.

I say , HOLD ON TO HIM.

Not gonna read this as theory, but actualli going to attempt to put it all into practice. So relevant

God help me to be an encouragement to others too :-)

The discovery

2011-11-17T07:13:00.000-08:00

Reading a book on my lunch break at work. In pops my supervisor and and her boyfriend asking me what it was about. Told them it was on Christian marriage (When God writes your love story).
Another girl within earshot got involved in the convo (whom ive never spoken to before) and it turns out she's also a Christian, reading a book on christian marriage (by one of my mums favroutie preachers) and preparing to get married herself next year!! #Amazing

We all started talkin about this marriage thing, and my superviors boyfriend joked that he's reading a satanic book called "Marriage from hell". I had to chuckle.

But it was great to meet someone in the office also on this walk. She even invited me to her church "we have plenty of single Christian girls for you". Hehehe, funny girl! This discovery has made my day.

I dont kno why, but i love it when I see young white people serving Christ. Sounds like a weird thing to say right, but its like with black people we`ve grasped Christianity wholeheartely. Tihis could be related to the many issues we`ve faced such as poverty, slavery. Christianity has given us a hope! Dont believe me? Look at the number of megachurches in Africa. In contrast, in the western white world Chrisitianity is rapid decline. Which is why when i see young white people (who seemingly have it all) giving up the partying, drinking, drugs and going against the norm, I salute them.

The above statments general. I trust my readers are intelligent enough to grasp the point im making

God bless!

2011-11-16T23:33:00.000-08:00

Souled Out
Faith without works is dead

Alone with my thoughts

2011-11-15T23:46:00.000-08:00

It feels like im back at square one again.......
Cause i congquered my thoughts,
but ive still got a bunch of them

They paralyse me
Antagonize me

To the point
where iv just gotta run from them

- Brewer 2010 -

2011-11-14T05:13:00.000-08:00

To say im confused, is an understatement

need guidance

YLC 2k11

2011-11-07T08:35:00.000-08:00

Spent the weekend away in Telford, with fellow youth leaders cooking up plans of how we'll answer to the great commission.

It was good!

My earnest prayer is that the passion and desire displayed at the conference wont die. It kinda did this year, although there were some situations which affected us that were out of our control.

I used to always complain, that the youth work werent growing. but now im learning, that instead of moaning be the catalyst! Regardless of whats going on around you, champion change! Others will follow suit!

The conference also taught me the importance of being sensitive to others. You dont know the half of what there going through.

Theres a difference between being `real` and just being plain rude!

Learning more each day! This walk is constant! If theres ever a point where we feel we've arrived/satisifed!

Somethings wrong!

Also learnt about being sensitive towards others. Im the sort of pero

Hearsay

2011-11-04T03:59:00.000-07:00

If i had a pound for every person I was linked too, I'd be rich.

Ok, maybe not rich but i'd have enough money to buy myself a new coat.

Do i like it?

No

Jotta

2011-10-28T16:54:00.000-07:00

I posted it not too long ago. Posting again as i cant get ovr how amazing he is!

Wanna take voice production lessons becoz of him

Coping with Criticism

2011-10-28T16:45:00.000-07:00

Been listening to a two part sermond series on `Coping with Criticism`.

On the evnts of today, i guess i need a sermon on `Not criticising`.

Feeling crazy low at the moment.
Let down God myself and the individual involved

.........Studio tomorow. Hopefulli il feel better ey?

sighss

The Perfection of Beauty

2011-10-25T13:17:00.000-07:00

Love Love Love Love

2011-10-25T11:38:00.000-07:00

After confession, temptations test our profession

Joseph Adedipe, 2011

Closure

2011-10-20T06:11:00.000-07:00

So after 6 years of chronic stomach pains, finally found what ive got yesterday!! I had to have an endoscopy!

During this procedure they put a camera down your throat!!! It is the most awakward thing ever!! #fact! Imagine a long cable being forced down your throat!

Imagine my shock when i walk into the theatre only to see 4 people carrying out the endoscopy! Dr Logan, a student doctor, an english nurse (she was stunning!!! Not in the sleazy way, but a natural beauty! along with a nice personality to match), and african mummy-type nurse!

Dr Logan was hilarious! He really ensured i was relaxed! Asking me about what i did and referring to me as a peckham boy!! LOL! Also told me, how he knew Tinie Tempahs mum, she was his colleague! Told him, i went college with him and he suggested i should make some clothes for him! hahahaha! (after telling him about my ambitions to run a fashion label)

I loved the 2 nurses! I was gagging and choking with the cam up my month. Massaging me and encouraging, kept me at ease! Theres something about the touch of a woman! Not the erotic touch

Well, seems like ive been living with a stomach ulcer for the past 6 years! im only 23!

Now im on 8 pills a day!........i wanna blog on 'divine healing'.

hmmm, a post for another day!-

It is well! :) Another scan in 8 weeks, by Gods grace it will be gone!

Changed my world

2011-10-19T14:43:00.000-07:00

My favorite gospel artist is Dwayne Tryumf.

Love this guy! Had the opportunity to interview him, not too long ago! The first thing i noticed was his humility. Not a common trait for artists nowadays, even those in the gospel industry!

I also noted his passion for scripture and evangelism.

Godly traits i admire and covet!

His new single came out yesterday! Love at first hearing!

Heres another of his tunes, i love! Proverbs 31 woman remix! I want him to perform this at my wedding

Weve been a long time in the making

Staying out of temptation

And not falling into fornication

weve been waiting

Fasting and praying

Seeking Gods face

While he put is in the right place

This is such a tune!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-10-18T14:30:00.000-07:00

The biggest compliment someone can pay you is by opening up fully to you. It shows a level of assurance which transcends the normal realms of friendship. A union built on the sturdy foundation of trust.

As one opens up, inhibitions are lost, barriers are broken.

And theres a point in that exchange when both parties realise they've moved from being friends too something much deeper

They've become siblings.

Brothers

Sisters

And regardless of what the future holds for them. They'll always look back on that moment and remember it with fondness

Urban poetry

2011-10-18T02:09:00.000-07:00

Snippet from some new material

The next day she awakes
With bruises on her face
She curls up in pain
She knows something has changed.

If only she had powers to affect time
She'd search for lifes remote and quickly press rewing

But that isnt the case
Her past cant be erased
Tears roll down her face
Shes a victim of rape.........

Bieber Fever

2011-10-17T11:41:00.000-07:00

Someone showed me this tune a while back. Just came to my mind today, i like it!

Dont tell no1, i like a Justin Bieber song!!!!!!! I have an image to uphold!!!!

hehehe, iKid

A letter to my......

2011-10-16T23:35:00.000-07:00

Dear Future Wife

I dont know who you are, don't even have an inkling. But i've started thinking about you. Thinking about interiors for our future house, what car we`ll get, holidays plus more.

Today i prayed for you.......I prayed God would give you the grace to handle me.
You see sometimes I can be a jerk. Occasionally I get into these unexplainable mood swings and just want to be left alone. I'm working on it.

Forgive me in advance

Regardless of how I may act, I want you to know its an absolute honor to share my last name with you. And look forward to you being the mother of my children

Theres so much more, i want to say.......But i guess i'll save that for you, when we meet in person

Adios, bone of my bone-flesh of my flesh

Smooches

Jojo x

ps the word divorce doesn't even exist in my vocabulary

"Many women have done virtuously but thou excellest them all"

a bittter pill

2011-10-15T12:47:00.000-07:00

today someone told me i had.......

friendship commitment issues

Proverbs 31 man

2011-10-13T08:35:00.001-07:00

She took a different route with the verse, but i kinda like it!

This vid also highlighted the need for me to..............................sign up to the GYM! This guy is mahoosive!
I think the day I get engaged il sign il sign up to the gym. Cant be going into marriage looking like a skinny wretch :).

At the moment, im a Zaccheus! Dylema has taught me, i need to be a "Samson" to my wife

*looks up gym memebership prices on the fitness first website*

2011-10-12T13:30:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary

Im sincerely praying for a testimony out of all this wahala! The one book I need predominantly, is sitting underneath my desk at work.

Sigh

Yours sincerley

Joseph

One step at a time...

2011-10-12T12:12:00.000-07:00

Exam tomorrow.

Left my notes/books at work

Sigh

As it is, i feel far from prepared

Maybe Gods teaching me total reliance on him

Dont know

Feeling helpless

1 I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help. 2 My help cometh from the LORD, which made heaven and earth. 3 He will not suffer thy foot to be moved: he that keepeththee will not slumber . 4 Behold, he that keepeth Israel shall neither slumber nor sleep . 5 TheLORD is thy keeper : the LORD is thy shade upon thy right hand. 6 The sun shall not smite thee by day, nor the moon by night. 7 The LORD shall preserve thee from all evil: he shall preserve thysoul. 8 The LORD shall preserve thy going out and thy coming in from this time forth, and even forevermore.

Psalm 121

It is well by his GRACE

Psalty was the `GUY` when i was growing up! Songs relevant at the moment

"In our weakness, God is STRONG"

Vexed Spirit: Episode 1

2011-10-12T03:38:00.000-07:00

Just saw someones status on facebook. It vexated my spirit

"Recently been advised.... All men cheat, so u mite aswell b wit da rich man who can give u that fabulous life (diamonds, holidays,shopping sprees) whilst Hez off disrespecting u, than the poor man who can't even say sorry with flowers or a 39p card.... "

How am I even friends with these people?

:-/

I dont know about tomorrow...

2011-10-10T00:49:00.000-07:00

So as of now, my brother and sis are currently working in China!

Im over Jel!.........Jel is the oyinbo way of saying jealous!
After working in predominanlty oyinbo office, im picking up on a lot of their lingo!

I digress...........anyways so my sis pointed me in the direction of a job site for jobs in China. Me being me, decided to apply for some.

To cut the long story, ive been called for an interview!!!!!

When : This Wednesday
Where: Shanghai, China

Myth! Considering ive got an exam on Thursday, this is definitite no no!
So it got me thinking, if i didnt have an exam, would I have gone? Would i be willing to give up everything here in the UK, and risk it all for a new life in the unknown?

A part of me thinks, NO! i couldnt do it! I dont have what the latinos refer to as "cahonas" !.........but then theres a part of me, and i must say say its bigger than the latter part which thinks, id take up the oppurtunity in the blink of an eye!

And its that bigger part of me, thats prompted me to ask them to re-arrange the interview :)

Theres nothing or no one holding me back in the UK..

I dont have a clue about tomorrow......

Literally, just finished the above sentence and checked my email. Got an email from the organsiation asking whether i'd want a telephone interview?!?!?!?!?!! Thats completely changed how this post is going to end!

Just cant see myself staying in the UK. Why live in a societry thats programmed for you to earn enough to pay your mortgage and have food to eat??? Im out for moree

I don't know about tomorrow;
I just live from day to day.
I don't borrow from its sunshine
For its skies may turn to grey.

I don't worry o'er the future,
For I know what Jesus said.
And today I'll walk beside Him,
For He knows what is ahead.

Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand.

Every step is getting brighter
As the golden stairs I climb;
Every burden's getting lighter,
Every cloud is silver-lined.

There the sun is always shining,
There no tear will dim the eye;
At the ending of the rainbow
Where the mountains touch the sky.

Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand.

I don't know about tomorrow;
It may bring me poverty.
But the one who feeds the sparrow,
Is the one who stands by me.

And the path that is my portion
May be through the flame or flood;
But His presence goes before me
And I'm covered with His blood.

Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand.

HIS will be done

What do me and Toni Braxton have in common?

2011-10-06T16:10:00.000-07:00

Answer: We used to go the same church!!!!

Braxton was born in Severn, MD, on October 7, 1968. The daughter of a minister, she was raised mostly in the strict Apostolic faith, which prohibited not only all popular culture, but also pants in women's wardrobes. Encouraged by their mother, an operatically trained vocalist, Braxton and her four sisters began singing in church as girls; although gospel was the only music permitted in the household, the girls often watched Soul Train when their parents went shopping.

This made me chuckle!

I Give Myslf Away

2011-10-06T10:51:00.000-07:00

This is one of the most emotional tunes ever! #fact

I remeber when they heard it, the atmosphere it created was amazing. It was like I was physically at the throne of God offering up my life.

This renditions by the youth choir of a mixture of my churches branches in America. I love it!

Apologies for the quality! Recorded it on me phone!

My choir needs to jump on these sort of tunes!

Laminin

2011-10-06T04:26:00.000-07:00

One of my sisters sent this to me yesterday. I dont think she'll ever realise the impact this had on me.
But it increased my appreciation/love/gratitude towards God.......

Much words arent neeeded for this one, but i pray it resonates with you the same way it resonated with me :)

To submit, or not to submit...

2011-10-05T02:00:00.000-07:00

Was speaking to one of the brothers, and the topic came up of future wives and submission.

Not a popular topic with females nowadays. I blame the media....Songs like Christina Aguileras - I dont need a man, Beyonce - Independent woman etc teaching girls they dont need no one, they can do it all by themselves! Need I say more?

But what the good book says about submission is contrary to what the world has told us! And as Christians what should we be following? The bible or Beyonce?
Its a cause for concern, that the mentalitys slipped into the church. I hear a lot of girls talk, and im like `dude u gotsta renew your mind`. All those thoughts/principles from before need to change! Neither can let you bad experiences/guys dictate future relationships. Thats limiting ones self!
Im not saying its an overnight process, but its sad to see people so stuck in there ways and seemingly unwilling to change!

Pray for them...

Modesty + Submission in a woman is a beautiful sight to behold! Oh and a woman who knows how to worship and has a DEEP love for the things of God!....Thats one of the things i have to salute my American sisters on! They got it going down in terms of heartfelt praise and worship towards God! They go all out, with no inhibitions! Love that!

Women get submitting! :)

Im not biased.....

The guys arent excused...Ephesian tells the brothers to love your wives, even as Christ loved the church and gave himself for it.
This verse doesnt get as much exposure as the one on wives submitting, but its equally as important if not even more! The husband is required to mirror traits of Christ, and give himself up for his wife like Christ gave himself up for the church!!

What better example of submission than this? Someone laying down their life undeservedly for those that hated him

If you ask me the husband has a bigger task of submission than the women. A beauitufl secular picture of the type of submission required can be seen in one of the closing scenes of Titanic (awesome film).
As the ships sinking, the captain locks himself in his room in the warm embrace of his wife! The most emotional rendition of `Neare my God to thee` plays in the background.Whilst others were fightin for the remaining spaces in the lifeboats, he gave himself up willingly.

Herein lieth the interepreation:
The husband as the head, is the Captain. He's been assigned by God to guide a ship (the family) to a promised land (Heaven). The sea is life! Sometimes lifes stormy, sometimes its peaceful! But its the captains duty, to safely guide his ship whatever the weather. And like the titanic example, there may be times when the captain is called to give himself up for his ship. May not neccessarily through death, but could be in terms of sacrificing a desire/dream in order to pay for his childs education

Men get submitting :)

Imagine a relationship in which both parties are submissive?
*wonders*

There comes a time when girls are no longer fascinated by our charming looks, swag, car we drive or the spots we hang out in. But by our true character, values and our future ambition...............only then have they truly become `women` and no longer `girls`!

Peace be bestowed upon thee :)

God knows, God cares

2011-10-04T01:59:00.000-07:00

Loving this song! The concept gets two thumbs up!
Highlights the beauty of Christian friendships. Lord knows i need a `Elizabeth` in my life. That person you can open up to with no inhibitions, study the word and pray together........

But then the question remians, can you have that in the gospel without being emotionallly drawn to that person?

Very much doubt it

Beautiful

2011-10-03T11:35:00.000-07:00

We are troubled on every side,

yet no distressed;

we are perplexed

but not in despair

Persecuted

but not forsake;

cast down,

but not destroyed

2 Corinthians 4 : 8,9

Some of the most beautiful words ever written #fact

A sad realization

2011-10-02T14:54:00.000-07:00

Spoke to one of the young ones today, and she opened up to me alot about her life. Pressures at school, home etc

As she relayed it all, i couldnt help but think....

We've failed as a youth body.

Smooth Jazz

2011-10-02T14:45:00.000-07:00

Was looking for a next tune and came across this!

1 word.........Beautiful!

Think i may have to jump on this smooth jazz vibe! Its so romantic, so sensual! Song just makes me want to pick back up the trumpet and join a band or something :)

I can imagine slow dancing across my living room with the `wife`, ballroom dancing like oyinbos! heheh

"and then i woke up......."

This is gonna be the sorta songs i'm revise to from now on....

Love it

Happy Birthday Naija ?

2011-10-02T14:03:00.000-07:00

Nigeria's 51!!!!

51 years of freedom!! Wohooooooooooooooo!

Really? NOT

Are we really free? Or have we enslaved ourselves?

Were we better under British rule than we were under Babangida or Abacha n co?

As long as the mind is enslaved, the body can never be free.

My opinions arent popular with most Naijas. But i look at them as that parent who constantly tries to argue that the child is good, when there school reports show them being disruptive in class.

Its a blind love. Lying to themselves nothings wrong, when it blatantly stares them in the face. The truth truly is a bitter pill to chew...

2 years ago, I went to the Naija Independence rave. Everyone was rolling up in big cars (whips), with the biggest necklaces (chains) splashing out on the most expensive champagne.

Now take a look at the slang words for what these guys were stunting with `whips` and `chains`?

What image is connotated?

whips + chains = SLAVERY!

Sigh.....................There is hope

But the first step to deliverance to is admittance. Admit we`re sick and in need of surgery!.......

Take for instance, Singapore! Theres alot we can learn from that nation. They had similar issues to us (corruption), and also become independent around the same time as us. But Singapore was the good child who went to university, Nigeria on the other hand dropped out of school and went to prison. In terms of GDP and development, there light years ahead of us.

Who knows, when we celebrate of 100th year of independence (in 2060), we'll have a similar testimony! If Jesus tarries, i'll be 73!

Maybe the change can start with me.......................

Everything will be alright....

2011-09-30T16:22:00.000-07:00

Big tune! Makes me wanna go NY again!

Surreal seeing places and thinking, rah i was there few weeks ago!

Got that new school RnB feel. Reminds me of Mario when he first came out

Everything will be alright

:-)

New work........

2011-09-29T13:05:00.000-07:00

Started on a new poem yesterday. Its figurative

i was called Joseph, for a reason

So if Potiphars wife tries it

Best believe im fleeing

If she messages me

I aint replying her text!

You see im focused on Christ

not focused on sex!

Stress

2011-09-29T12:56:00.000-07:00

I don't kno what's wrong with me nowadays. Lately I come home from work stressed out. Take out my anger on my younger bros. 
Any action or word from them becomes a catalyst for me to go off on one. 

I cant even say its work thats stressing me out.  Really enjoying work at the moment.....

It ain't excuse that I've got alot going on in my mind. 

But it's got me thinking, is that how I'm gonna be as a father? Stressed out day at the office, come and take it out on the wife and kids????

God forbid bad ting! 

But after these episodes. Guilt physically abuses me. I replay the scenes over and think 'Joseph you've acted like a jerk, that was really unnecessary'. In my head I try to justify my actions, but in the bottomest pit of my heart I kno I'm fully in the wrong.  So i have to make things right

To say sorry is a whole nutha episode. Find it so hard! #pride. 

I say sorry, materialistically. Like for instance, buy them stuff etc. Reading this back, that seems so wrong.

Almost anamalisitc. Like giving a dog a bone :-/

Well I guess they'd prefer a pair of trainers than a 'sorry' lol...............................but one should never be too big to say sorry.

Although in all of this I rarely take it out on little man. Unless he realllllllllllllly pushes my buttons! Hes definition of sorry, is a biscuit or sweets :)

Lifes been stress, feeling kinda low                                                                                                                                                                 pain etched on my face, i wonder if he knows

Sigh

So help me God

You've got to die to live

2011-09-27T14:45:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I had a fight. :-(. I ain't fought in a long time, but in yesterday's case there was no way I could back down. It was make or break

It wasnt a physical fight, but a spiritual one.

Internal

A fight between me and my flesh. It was intense. Nothing like anything I've been involved in before. Had to reach for my non-carnal weapons of warfare and pull down strongholds, and cast down imaginations!

It was eye opening...A reminder that im nothing without God! A reminder that at no point should I rest on the laurels of being saved for over a year.  Its a constant battle, and only entrance through heavens gates is confirmation of victory.

'He that endures to the end, the same shall be saved`

Its funny how the devil uses temptation to draw us away from the path we`re treading.  But God uses temptations to secure and make us stronger! Its our reactions that determine whose will has been achieved!

Rick Warren told me this morning, that its a compliment when the devil sends temptation our way.  There's no need for him to tempt what he already has in his pocket! #deep

Now im understanding the phrase "we've gotta die to live".  At the point where we have died to our flesh, wheres it desires have no dominion over us will we truly LIVE! Live here on earth, and in heaven.  To the world though, we wont be living We'll b boring! BUT we  dont look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen: for things which are seen are temporal, but the things which are not seen are eternal!

Soldier, ready for the war like a trojan                                                                                                                   daily wrestling my flesh....Hulk Hogan

2011-09-26T13:12:00.001-07:00

Lord, im sorry but you know i wanna be reach
but Lord just bless me as you see fit

To buy or not to buy

2011-09-26T07:51:00.000-07:00

Read this morning about being a steward of what God has given us. Also been thinking lately about how i should involved God more in my purchases.

My spending habits have drastically improved, but they still leave alot to be desired of. Therees room for improvement.

So yeah, im bored at work so i decided to do what most females do, when there bored! SHOP! I came across the sickest shoes and was about to cop them! Whilst putting the order through, quickly whispered a prayer saying if he didnt want me to purchase them, dont let the transaction go through!.....Final page, order rejected! Incorrect card details on my paypal account!

:-)

It sounds trivial. But i guess it makes so much sense. After all, he is our best friend! Doesnt his opinion count???

Im gonna miss those `shoes`! Oh well! The last shows i bought, i left them at campmeeting!!

Woop woop

2011-09-23T14:51:00.000-07:00

She got it!

"All things work together for good for them that love the LORD"

Logs and specks

2011-09-23T06:59:00.000-07:00

Yesterday someone vexated my spirit. Wanted to flare up.....

God softly reminded me.....but you do the same thing

Had to removed a very big log from eye. My eye still hurts

Myth or no myth?

2011-09-21T01:20:00.000-07:00

Watched a naija film 2 days ago. For the first time in donkey years! Growing up i was addicted to them along with my mum! We used to watch like 4 a week! My bro was never involved, secrelty he was scared of them!

Anyways, the film was about a young boy who got targeted by mammywaters! They were out for his sweat and blood!! It got me thinking about them, whether they truly existed or if this was just one big myth created to instil fear into people! Fears a powerful weapon! The devil knows this!
Growing up I had an ignorant perception, that all Nigerian girls were witches!!!!!! more especially if they were good looking!........Dont blame me, blame Nollywood! Would never have dated one!

Well it seems theses things are very real! Read a couple expereicnes of former members of the City Under The Sea! I aint gonna lie, its got me a bit scared! Dont think il be swimming in beaches! And you`ll never catch me at Bar Beach!..............Also learnt about the significance of water in scripture! Eye opening!

"No weapon formed against me shall prosper"

Currently reading up on soul ties!

Just the two of us

2011-09-19T03:16:00.000-07:00

Euphoria - a state of great happiness or well being.....

Woke up this morning next to little man.
He's half asleep
Sucking his thumb, breathing softly.
His free hand playfully massages my ear..
We communicate
He goo goos and ga gas
I chuckle
A language only we understnad
I bask in the moment
Temporarily forgetting the cares of this life
Two travellers in a distand land
A world, where only me and him exist

"Wake up David, its time to get ready for school"

Although im not his father, I think the tune below exhibits the emotions I feel towards my lil bro.....

I pledge to you, I will always do
Everything I can
Show you how to be a man
Dignity, Integrity, Honor
I dont mind if you lose as long as you came with it
An you can cry, there aint no shame in it

#realTalk

Food for thought

2011-09-15T04:55:00.000-07:00

"With great power comes great responsibility" Peter Parker, Spiderman

"With great responsibility comes scrutiny" Joseph Adedipe

To recite or not to recite....

2011-09-12T08:20:00.000-07:00

I had the oppurtunity of performing some poetry at camp in America.......Before i continue,

disclaimer: im not a poet neither would I refer to myself as a rapper! Just a regular guy who puts words together to form sentences which happen to rhyme! Who then calls these sentences `poetry` to make it suitable for the church setting!

So on the first day whilst conversing with a young person out in America, one of the London peeps opened their big mouth and mentioned to the individual i did 'poetry'. On hearing this I was egged on to perform it at the end of camp concert!

Erm, No wayyyyyyyyy!

I was skeptical! You see when black Americans think of poetry, they think of a style similar to below!

I am a long way off from the standards above so doubted they would feel/get me!

Wasnt involved! But friday night, the service was epic! Felt so revived! So decided to go along with it!

The performance: God came down! Took control! Prounced the words extra carefully so they'd understand hehe! At the end, they were all on their feet applauding!

Was emosh, received a standing ovation...........the devil always tries to come in at this point and plant seeds of pride! Happenes after various performances sigh..I quickly rememeber the story of Herod and his downfall and quickly come correct!

A lot of people came up to me to afterwards, but the thing that moved me the most was when a girl came up and said it made her cry.
It really hit home like woah! something i'd wrote at work one day could have such a profound effect on someone.

I realised that this a talent, a gift from above. Something i should possibly pay more attention to. Something i could utilise more?........

Need direction

To adopt or not to adopt.........

2011-09-12T07:15:00.000-07:00

One of the people I warmed to most in America was a young girl named Shay. Beautiful 14 year old with a beautiful personality (she lied she was 15 hehehe (kids!!!)). She became my little sister in camp.
What's even more amazing is that I found out recently that she was adopted!!

Now those who truly know me, know this is something I've had close to my heart. As well as haavin my own children I want to adopt aswell.

Meeting Shay has given me greater impetus to still go down this road. Knowing I could possibly affect someone's life positively and help them live a normal life that they possibly may have not had the oppurtunity too, excites me!

God willing it will come to pass

Meet Shay.....

Isnt she just a bundle of joy! Love her!

Gonna hook her up with my lil bro! iJoke........he doesnt deserver her

:-)

Now we're in New York.....

2011-09-07T08:39:00.000-07:00

Hey shawty, what it do!

Dudes be tripping!
Sistahs be trifling!!

Lol, my bad! Just working on my usage of Yankee slang!
New York 2011! Where does one begin?

It has beeeb sick! Or as my young American friends would say "it's been beast"!

The Interamational Youth Conference was awesome! Met some people I can truly call brother/sister! Lifelong friends! I've purposed to keep in touch with them! It also opened my eyes to the standards of my church! we're all preaching the same message but have different ways of presenting it!

There's so much to say but don't have the foggiest idea of where to begin!

Today I'm being a bum! It's 11:47 n I'm still in bed!!

To be fair, it is raining! Anywhooo I'm off to eat sone breakout! Oh!!! Don't even let me get started on their cuisine out ere! Let's just say it's no surprise th obesity levels in America are astronomical!!

I'm off !

Peace out, A Town!

Day 1 : I don arrive

2011-09-01T03:37:00.000-07:00

I don arrive

The time reads 3:27 pm (it's 8:27 over in the UK). I'm at a bus stop outside the John F Kennedy airport waiting for a bus to Midtown then get a train to Amsterdam Ave.

First impressions : You could be forgiven for thinking your still in the UK. The only give away is the hoardes of yellow cabs and oddly shaped vehicles.

The airport staff have been grumpy. Customer service has been atrocious. Although airport workers in UK airports aren't exactly model citizens of society. So I guess it would be unfair to judge the US on that!
To add to my grief I was taken into the US equivalent of border force. It was surreal. They asked me questions like
- why are u here?
- list all the countries you've been to in your life?
- have you ever fired a gun?
Plus more! I felt like a criminal

Anyways like I said I'm outside tbd JFK waiting for what has seemed like an eternity for a bus. It costs 15 dollars plus 2 dollars for the train, whereas taxi to my hotel would've costed 60 dollars. The way I'm feeling now I should've just forked it out. This is long.

To further add to my grief. I turned on my 3G on my iPhone and in the space of an hour. Ive been charged 13pds for using the Internet!!!!

Not exactly the start I was looking for!

We'll see how it goes!

I won't judge America by it's front cover

:-)

Wow

2011-08-28T13:16:00.000-07:00

Speechless.

Emotional

God bless u Jotta A

I had to share

Kene Jesu

2011-08-28T00:03:00.000-07:00

The times reads 8:07 on Sunday 28th August. All year ive been looking forward to this date.

Why?

I should be on a plane to New York City. But im not....im at home getting ready for church.

Why?

Flights been cancelled due to Hurricane Irene. Wont know till Monday whether i can fly out or not

God knows best :-)

Happy Sunday!

I leave with a tune that always reminds me "In all things give thanks"

Love this guys! There a talented bunch and they can ACTUALLY sing! Plus there harmonies and arrangments are on point to!

Kudos Midnight Crew

Peace b upon u

Awkwardity

2011-08-26T03:00:00.000-07:00

The awakward moment when you realise a category 3 hurricanes heading for New York, and your flying out there on sunday :-s

To invest or not to invest?

2011-08-23T05:55:00.000-07:00

"On a lighter note, this year, im planning to be more serious with life! Cut down spending, save more! Have a 5 year plan in place!"
Joseph Adedipe 22/08/1988

23/08/2011
Today i took the first step into investing into shares! Risky market! But im trusting God for favour

:-)

Ive argued so many times with my bruddas about whether doing shares was gambling or not!

Is it?

To relocate or not to relocate?

2011-08-23T03:41:00.000-07:00

So speaking with mum and my step dad about me relocating after graduation! The two suggesttions were Nigeria and New Jersey....hmmm

New Jersey is an interesting proposition but I would love to live in the motherland! For a few years now a deep love has grown for Nigeria! Dont kno what its down to or where it came from, but it just appeared one day and has grown since! Its uncommon amongst western born Nigerians.

Alot of people are jumping on the Nigeria bandwagon, because D;banj has `suddenly` (no pun intended) made it cool to be Naija! What does he do for Naija though? Nothing of note.
One person i`ll forever hold in high regard, is one of my girls from uni! During placment year, everyones fighting to be employed by the top organisations but she went down a completely different route. She set up a charity and opened up IT centres for kids in Nigeria!!! #Phenomenal!!!

Check it out below
http://www.itkidzofafrica.com/news/index.html

Spoke to her a while back, was sad to hear the governor of the state the centre was based in had gone back on a promise to provide a generator. #typical

Recapping this story is making me realise what developed my love for Naija. The continual putting down of the nation! The failures of those in power! Corruption! The constant synonimisation of Nigeria with fraud plus much more!

Nigeria has potential........

"If I ever make a million
I will buy my mother, land
up in the motherland"

I close with a quote from my brother

The cancerous nature of the Nigerian hierarchy will ensure the inequality gap that continues to plague the economy will continue growing for the foreseeable future. Harrowing times indeed, Omo, Naija sick oh but hopefully she'll get that dose of chemotherapy she needs to recover and fulfill the potential she clearly possess
Phillip Nduoyo, 2011

Wow!

2011-08-22T06:15:00.000-07:00

Came back from my break, saw a card on my desk!

Open it, theres birthday card from work colleagues.........with $40 for me to spend when i go New York

I was actually speachless for a moment!

Mad love for these guys

:-)

Twen-Tee-Three

2011-08-22T03:05:00.000-07:00

23 years ago, this day a star was born. His name was Joseph.

Im really trying to get into the bert-day mood, but im seriously struggling. Is this what happens with age?

As one grows, does the allure of birthdays fade?

Would seem so in my case. I think im becoming a scrooge...

Birthdays........Bah humbug!

Yesterday, i deleted my wall of facebook. I cant be asked to be inundated with the countless notificiations from individuals jumping on the bandwagon who care nothing about your life but wish you a `happy birthday` accompanied with a smiley face, because facebook notified them so and so had wrote on your wall. (cant lie, ive been guilty of this).
I was haivng this debate with my brother, he couldnt see my reasoning (which is fair enough, im not a radical trying to get everyone to follow my way of thinking) but i gave him an example from his own facebook wall. A birthday post from a girl from primary school (he left primary school in 1999) she wished him a happy birthday today (2011). When was the last time he spoke to her?

He couldnt give me an honest answer!.....He ended up agreeing with me in the end lol!

But this is my point, why should i be bothered with posts from people i have no contact with?................This brings me on to the subject of the people i have as friends on facebook. If my friends list was to be based on people ive spoken to on the phone in the last 6 months, my friends list would whittle down from 700+ to less than 30! Eye-opening!

Not all is doom and gloom! I came into work and my colleagues have decorated my desk and computers :-) Mad love for some of these guys! Im expecting my present in the afternoon! :-)

I received a lovely text from my sister in America just befor 12midnight! Aswell as beautiful texts from a host of other FRIENDS!

On a lighter note, this year, im planning to be more serious with life! Cut down spending, save more! Have a 5 year plan in place!

2 of my boys from uni are now married.....a few people have kids.....

Im not saying i want these things now (well, marriage wouldnt be bad :-p hehehe) , neither do i feel im ready for these things. But through assessing the different situations of many friends, its highlighting how old im getting.

"See I gotta' make moves in my life
Lord I'm all yours make moves in my life
My skin colour, that's no excuse
Coz' the blacker the berry, the sweet the juice"
Utter Once

Wait

2011-08-21T00:30:00.000-07:00

I will wait on you LORD......................I aint gonna move till the time is right

Gods time is right

But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.

Isaiah 40:31

Was blind, but now I see

2011-08-19T02:26:00.000-07:00

And immediately there fell from his eyes as it had been scales: and he received sight forthwith...... Act 9:18

I was googling and came across a blasphemous lyrics. It got me thinking about the sort of music i used to listen to. One particular lyric from Notorious BIG came to mind, couldnt remember it full so decided to look it up. Shocked me

When I die, f*ck it I wanna go to hell
Cause I'm a piece of sh*t, it ain't hard to f*ckin' tell
It don't make sense, goin' to heaven wit the goodie-goodies
Dressed in white, I like black Tims and black hoodies
God will probably have me on some real strict sh*t
No sleepin' all day, no gettin my di*k licked
Hangin' with the goodie-goodies loungin' in paradise
F*ck that sh*t, I wanna tote guns and shoot dice...

I used to love this guy :-o

Another band i used to like were The Script.

Well if im judged on the life ive been living
And heaven is not so forgiving
Well i dont care
Cause I wont knoe anybody there

Used to love these guys also

I knew alot of the artisits i listened to previously had questionable songs/lyrics but used to justify by lying to myself that I werent listening to those specific tunes. If Artist A talks about wanting to go to hell in one tune, but then does a positive tune on another. Does it make it ok to listen to them?.........

No

And even as they did not like to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them over to a reprobate mind, to do those things which are not convenient;

Who knowing the judgment of God, that they which commit such things are worthy of death, not only do the same, but have pleasure in them that do them.

Romans 1:29 & 32

The Great Commision

2011-08-19T01:21:00.000-07:00

So i gave one guy at work a tract a few days ago! This guy is one of the most hilarious guys ive met! He;s scottish! Has a wicked sense of humour!!

So yeah i gave him a tract from church on an atheist who became a believer! Story goes he was working one day, God appeared to him! Had some ups and downs and God helped him through etcetera...

Anyways to cut the long story short, he came back to me yesterday and said "Ah Joe, that was a nice little read you gave me yesterday! but aint it funny how after he met God, he started having all these problems, and get kept on getting out of em mate. I mean you would think the moment he found God, his problems will stop?"

I had to laugh!!

We will stand..........

2011-08-18T15:37:00.000-07:00

From back in the day I was on Gaither! They are soooooper!

Love this song!

Thy will be done............

2011-08-18T01:59:00.000-07:00

God works in mysterious ways...........his wonders to perform!

So yesterday, i was looking for jobs in my company for one of my sisters in Christ..........(i love that phrase, bros n sis in Christ) it has a nice ring to it!

Anyways so whilst looking for her, i came across against a job! I whispered a prayer to God at my desk and applied for it!

Guess what, a few hours later i got an email that ive been offered an interview

*bbdances*

My sis also applied for it too! You would think i.d be angry? Nope, not in the slightest!!!! Theres no need to be, coz at the end of the day, its GODS will that be done and shes my sister! Shouldnt i want good for my family?

So i say to my sister, God go before you in your applciation!

If i get it......I'll Rejoice
If she gets it....I'll Rejoice
If none of us get it...I'll still Rejoice

Because all things work together for them that LOVE the LORD!!!!!!!!

This is one of the fruits of sanctification! UNITY! ONE BODY!

your my brother, your my sister

so take me by the hand

together we will work until he comes

theres no foe that can defeat us

when we`re walking side by side

as love as there is love we will stand

Referemces - song lyrics Avalon "We will stand"

Remind me.....

2011-08-17T07:15:00.000-07:00

show me where you brought me from and
where i could have been
just remember I'm a human and human's forget
so remind me, remind me dear Lord

An old acquaintance messaged me on facebook, and due to this new feature on fb it showed previous message history from years back!. It had me gobsmacked! :-o. I'd been involved in a little bit of hype with the person, and read some of the messages that were exchanged during a situation. I was shocked at the vulgarity and maliciousness of the words i'd used against this person. I was a real jerk :-(

The Devil has this trick of constantly reminding me of the past, and thinking too much has been done to be forgiven :-(..................................but then I remember HIS love, remember the blood, remember HIS sacrifice was more than enough :-)

Nothing good have i done
to deserve God's own Son
I'm not worthy of the scars
in His hands
yet he chose the road to Calvary
to die in my stead
why He loved me i can't understand

Reference - Song Lyrics , Remind me by Alison Krauss

You learn something new everyday.....

2011-08-17T03:36:00.000-07:00

A friend pointed me in the direction of the John Wesleys explanatory notes of the Bible! Been reading it for about 15 mins, and im already amazed!

First looked at Genesis 27. The story of Jacob stealing Esaus blessing from Issace. What caught my eye was the isntrumental role Rebeckah played in causing her son to lie to her husband as well as the difference in blessings distributed to each son! Because of Jacobs deception, Esau had to settle for sloppy seconds......well no blessing is sloppy, but in comparison to Jacobs blessing, he got the shorter end of the straw!

Issacs blessing
Therefore God give thee of the dew of heaven, and the fatness of the earth, and plenty of corn and wine:

Essaus blessing
And Isaac his father answered and said unto him, Behold, thy dwelling shall be the fatness of the earth, and of the dew of heaven from above;

In essence, same blessing. But the key difference is the order of the blessings! Jacob received blessings from heaven first, and then the materialisitc blessings of the earth! Whereas, on the other hand Esau received the blessings of the earth first and then the blessings of heaven after.

I guess this explains, the difference in both of their outcomes!

Truly amazing

"How can they say the Bibles boring?"

I need to find a young bible study group........

Hunger

2011-08-16T08:24:00.000-07:00

My desire to succeed is hereditary......

I will never be content with living an average mans legacy

Wise words

2011-08-16T08:02:00.000-07:00

Make sure it is from Jesus!

Make sure that this love is gnna be sacrifical...you want it grow (if it is from God) to the point you can take her let downs in your stride, you can protect her, you can love her soul, you want to see her grow in every respect, you can love her to the point she understands you love her, you love her before she loves you, you can look past her insecurities and see a God sample. Its a high level.

Get a confirmation from God...it may get tested.

E.I 2011

Progression

2011-08-16T03:28:00.000-07:00

David moved to Nigeria

Kenny moved to Nigeria

Abi moved to Nigeria

Sadies working in USA

Elisias working in China

Gabriels working in China

...............Josephs still in London :-(

Count you blessings......

2011-08-15T04:04:00.000-07:00

......name them one by one!

So yesterday we sang the above hymn in church! I dont kno what it is with me nowadays, but songs have just been resonating with me on a whole nuva level!

Its also highlighting, how ive been singing these songs for years, yet never actually taking in the words! :-(

Verse 3 captured me yesterday....

When you look at others with their land and gold

Think that Christ has promised you his wealth untold

Count your many blessings, money cannot buy

Your reward in heaven, nor your Lord on high

This spoke loads to me yesterday!! In the society i live in, im surrounded by people with similar struggles, who have `supposedly` change their life arounds through illegal/fraudulent measures! I would be the biggest liar if i said i didnt get tempted. Take for instance a 16 year old boy from Peckham on youtube showcasing his stash of £40k in cash!!!! :-o

It does make a you think for a few seconds.......How many of our parents even have £40k in savings??

However, i do get comfort from a verse i read yesterday..

1 If ye then be risen with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ sitteth on the right hand of God.

2 Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth.

Colossians 3:1,2

Blessing #1 - Thank God im alive! Thank God he even allowed me to experience this wonderful thing called life!

Taboo

2011-08-12T14:35:00.000-07:00

First tune im gonna dance to at my wedding!

Whatever happened to good unadulterated music?

J'adore Sade! Best thing to come out of the motherland! Naija Baby!!!!!!!!

Whats wrong with me?

2011-08-12T01:26:00.000-07:00

Since ive started working, theres been moments where my mind goes completely blank. I literally stare at my computere screen, forgetting what i should be doing!

Another time too, i was at the cash machine and forgot my pin for a few seconds!

I cant evn tell you the amount of times i forget my passwords at work!!! Although we have so many different systemes to log into!

Am i getting old?

R.I.O.T.S

2011-08-11T01:45:00.001-07:00

(R)eal (I)diots (O)n (T)he (S)treets

Where does on start one this topic??

I`ll start with the word!
And shall receive the reward of unrighteousness, as they that count it pleasure to riot in the daytime. 2 Peter 2:13

Is there any aspect of life that Bible doesnt cover? If you find one let me kno!

What has been will be again, what has been done will be again; there is nothing new under the sun Ecclesiastes 1:9

To think 4 lives have stepped into eternity, all because of what? Its all well and good society blaming the youth, but what do you say about the teaching assistant caught rioting? Or the mother trying on trainers outside the JD Store?

Those who continually complain about todays youth, forget their the ones who raised them

I understand fully why people would loot big departmental stores etc, but family run local businesses? Thats bang out of order...

sigh

I cant be bothered to continue with this rant....depressing topic

Before I go, I leave with a confession

if this was the summer of 04, i too would have been looting

A beautiful fruit

2011-08-10T11:36:00.000-07:00

Im far from perfect

I dont wanna hurt you

So i do what the WORD says

Patience.........take a bite

A beautiful fruit that you need in your life

So im pointing you straight to Christ

Im right behind you, we need to decide

To take time, in his WORD we abide

and keep this friendship alive

Bert-day dramas

2011-08-10T02:52:00.000-07:00

Its my bday in exactly 12 days!

The big 23!

Im becoming a big man! Any thing i do to celebrate this MONUMENTAL day, has to reflect my new found status!
So ive decided to move away from the mundane activities, people usually engage in on their bdays!

Meals - so played out! Who would i even invite?...im everyones friend....apparently
Cinema - secondary school bday parties
Bowling - primary school bday parties

I asked someone for their advice, and was given an exstensive list of possible ideas?

barbeque, Nay
away weekend, Yay
away day to a different city, Yay
paint balling, Nay
something in the park, Nay
gokarting, Nay
Chinese (really nice place in N.Greenwich ) Nay, Nay and even more Nays
sweep the streets of Peckham – hv a street cleaning party!, - LOOOOOOOOOL
games night! Maybay
camping Yay
house party Nay
do nothing Maybay

im thinking.....a weekend in Paris

hmmm, now we`re talking!

Examples

2011-08-09T02:29:00.001-07:00

So at camp i stayed with a young couple and their young son, and one of my brothers dads in a nice lil caravan.
The couple were cute! They had pet names for each other, lol! So unafrican, although there from Zimbabwe! They tend to be a tad more westernised than us Naijas! T
The wife in particular embodied alot of the characters i'd desire in my wife! Loving and caring (cooked breakfasts for all of us every morning), as well as good relationship with her son. One morning she spent like 45 mins competiting with her young son on game on her mobile. Hearing them banter with each other, playfully aruguing who was better was beautiful!

In my boys dad, i saw a tru example of Christian humility. This guys over 60, but his humbleness (both spiritually/physically) leaves me in awe. This is a guy whos done really well for himself physically, and its common for Nigerians like him to be absolute jerks! but he tottaly dispels that myth. I remember last camp he wanted to iron my shirt for me. Thats totally unheard of in the African culture! 60 year old ironing for a 22 year old??????? U dey craze!

Thank God for good examples!

God bless em all

Camp 2011

2011-08-08T04:53:00.000-07:00

This post is long overdue!

Camp was absolutely super! I was actually so pissed to come back to London!.... Is pissed a swearword? I have a friend who thinks it is!

I would happily stay for 2 weeks!

Met some legendary young people from our other branch churches n locations! (I salute all my Birmingham, Manchester, Leicester, Aberdeen, Sheffield youth) As well as getting to know a number of people much better!

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It was different this time about. Before (few years back)i werent really on going camp, ive now realised its coz my motives were messed up! I went to socialise, crack jokes and play football! but when my life changed, so did my motives!

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An ex member of my church wrote on twitter "You can tell AFM, have just had a campmeeting...everyones friends at the moment". It was probably a sly dig, but i took the positves out the statement! There was no qualms/wahala everyone was at peace!

Better is one day in your house, Better is one day in your courts! Than thousands elsewhere!

Nothing, and i genuinely mean nothing beats the feeling, the euphoria of being in Gods prescence!...........once can only begin to imagine what heaven will be like!

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God surprised me aswell! .......... well i guess time will tell if its from God or not! I remeber how i felt when i first heard the news, came as a shock although i had a slight inkling. Had to run straight to the altar!

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We also performed our drama, the one where i had to slap my `wife`..God forbid im ever engaged in such activity! It was fab, God really took control! The devil tried to raise his ugly butters head on so many different levels, but he forgot we roll with King Jesus! Praying that the seeds planted during the drama, will germinate and generate change!

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Did a spot of shopping too! Your probably wodnering, shopping in Wales????? Yep, shopped in Wales! It was like looking for water in a desert! but i found a few things! Got some nike Airforce 1s for my baby brother for £8s!!!! #Bargain! My friend got Kickers for £3!!!! I also witnessed a girl buy 6 pairs of shoes in less than 90 mins!!!!!

What is it with girls and shoes????????????????? :-/

Also went bowling, came fourth! Even lost tp a girl !!! :-( Im slyly losing my touch!

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Took along my SLR camera! Cost quite a bit, but boy oh boy has it been worth every penny! Its caputured some beautiful moments! Someone mistakenly lost my memory card, with a load of pics from the last few days :-( Was kinda pissed! but oh well, such is life! It continues to go on! My biggest regret, is i didnt go into the hills! Coulda snapped some nice images :-( oh well, theres always next year :-)

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God revealed his calling to me, and these riots has only further intensified the need for me to answer the call
#soul-EDOut....watch this space

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Downside of camp? NONE! apart from teh face, i was constantly getting ill! which greatly hampered my prayer life! Sigh, had yet another test before camp, still awaiting results....clap for yourselves NHs.

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Next stop: New York, Washington, Philadelphia.........Im not excited in the slightest! Maybe it will sink in soon

Macys, Broadway here i come.........

And then it hit me....

2011-08-08T04:51:00.000-07:00

........... Love is patient

There is an.........

2011-08-08T04:46:00.000-07:00

"There is a love that never fails
When earthly love decays"

Sang the above hymn in church today. I've probably sang this song over a hundred times in my lifetime, but the above two lines resonated with me on a whole nuva level today.

God was speaking to me directly. Reminding me that the focus needs to be on him, not on anything or anyone else!

He has to be no.1

Just what I needed :-)

There is an eye that never sleeps
Beneath the wing of night;
There is an ear that never shuts
When sink the beams of light.

There is an arm that never tires
When human strength gives way;
There is a love that never fails
When earthly loves decay.

That eye is fixed on seraph throngs;
That arm upholds the sky;
That ear is filled with angel songs;
That love is throned on high.

But there’s a power which man can wield
When mortal aid is vain,
That eye, that arm, that love to reach,
That listening ear to gain.

That power is prayer, which soars on high,
Through Jesus, to the throne,
And moves the hand which moves the world,
To bring salvation down.

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Josephs Pain pt.2

2011-08-02T01:45:00.000-07:00

For a few years now, my heads been soaked up in stress
Severe stomach pains, the doctors says its down to IBS

My biggest worry is it will affect my working life and relationships
Cause who would want to marry or hire a guy thats constantly sick

.......

:-(

2011-07-22T04:34:00.000-07:00

Feeling like crap, Wales couldn have come at a better time........

Josephs Pain

2011-07-18T01:11:00.000-07:00

Lifes a little stress
im feeling kinda low

Pain etched on my face
I wonder if he knows

My life was moving steady
Now its go slow

Hard to breathe
Problems got in a chokehold

..............

Is the `one` a myth?

2011-07-14T03:32:00.000-07:00

Speaking to one of my brothers in Christ at work about this whole marriage ting! I asked him how he knew his wife was the one......

His reply.............

"“The one” is a myth bro,

Anyone could have been the one cause out of 10 billion people on the planet the chances of each person finding the one is impossible.

You just have to focus on being “The one” and by Gods grace, you will find someone compatible, a helper etc"

Wise words, instead of looking for `the one`, BE `the one`

Baby names

2011-07-13T07:59:00.000-07:00

Im at work, and sleep is physically violating me! Im sturggling :-(

So im surfing the net, and reading about Beckhams daughters weird name malarky! Who calls their daughter Harper 7 though? Thats a par of supreme levels!

But it got me thinking about, what i might name my offspring! I dont wanna go for the conventioal names Africans name their kids! The Johns, Peters, DAvids, Michaels, Marys, Esthers, Elizabeths etc! I want to move away from the mundane names and name my seed smoething exotic! Ok, woudlnt say the names are mundance, some have really good meanings! Maybe repetiives

So after some research, ive come up with

Jayden!.......Means Thankful in Hebrew!

Daughter...Neveah (Ner-vee-yah) - Heaven backwards!

Neveah Adedipe (pronounced aa-der-dee-pay)
Jayden Adedipe
Neniyah Adedipe

They all have a nice ring to it

Whatever names my wife choose, will be middle names............After all i am the head!!!! lol, i Joke! 50/50 partnership!

back to work i gooooooooo!

Im awake now :-)

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

im a neeek

July 30th 2012

2011-07-11T08:46:00.000-07:00

July 30th 2010 at approximately 16.00, me and God made a deal. Well not a deal, as that insinuates we`re on the same level. It was more like a promise....a covenant of abstinence from a particualr thing.

It werent a sin, i guess it wasnt condusive for my spirituall well being at the time....still isnt if im honest

So todays July 11th, 16.54 and by Gods grace, through his grace and power ive somehow managged to stick to it.

Only just......stupidly put myself in compromising situations, saying things i shouldnt have said sigh

"i thank you, that you never hide your face, LORD where would I be without grace"

1 year, 20 more days to go. Lord continue to help me!

Grammar/Vocabulary

2011-07-08T03:52:00.000-07:00

I was reading through some of my previous posts, and one thing ive noticed is.........My grammar and vocabular is atrocious!

Tonight, when i get home i'll ripp up my GCSE English Lang cert!

Thought for the day...

2011-07-08T01:51:00.000-07:00

Was the death of Christ, about the suffering caused at the hands of the Romans? Was the `sweat as great drops of blood` down to his fear of being crucified?

If so, how comes Christians for 100s of years after Christ's death were also crucified? They sang hymns on their way crucifixions and some of them requested to be crucified upside down. Others were crucified and burnt simulataneously.

So Christ was `scared to suffer, but his followers happily put themselves forwad?

hmmm......doesnt add up!

Father, if thou be willing, remove this cup from me: nevertheless not my will, but thine, be done.

The proof is in the cup......

What was in the cup?????...............Herein lieth the answer

The word is so deep. In this lifetime we wont be able to fully comprehend 1% of it

Best Friend

2011-07-06T05:18:00.000-07:00

Ive heard this song a number of times in the past, but heard it yesterday for the first time as a saved soul. It tugged a next part of my heart.

This brings up the whole argument of secular vs non-secular, secular artists doing gospel etc

I guess il leave that one for another day.......

God is LOVE.......or is he? pt2

2011-07-06T05:08:00.000-07:00

Does God hate sin or Sinners?

I was under the impression he hated sin. But if this was the case, wouldnt he just send sin to hell?

Food for thought

God is LOVE.......or is he?

2011-07-06T03:40:00.000-07:00

So for a while now, ive been heavily intrigued by this whole topic of `Law and Grace`. Dont know what im talkin about? Read my musings on debate below

http://diaryofabrokesinglestudent.blogspot.com/2011/02/law-vs-grace.html

Christianity today is flooded by the presumption that God is LOVE! Therefore think that theres no way God could have any hate in him.
In essence preach the doctrine that once saved, your saved for life. Continue sinning, and God just looks on lovingly, like its all good.

Paul Washer broke it down in a way, ive never come across! I had to pause the sermon and think for a few seconds......

"I love children, therfore I must hate abortion
I Love African-Americans, therfore i must hate the slavery
I Love Jewish people, thereforre I must hate the holocaust"

God LOVES Righteousness, therefore he hates SIN

People who preach this whole concept of God being a God of Love alone, havent read the book of Psalms. Although there argument would be, we`re no longer under law.....

this debate will only be answered in heaven!

Old Joe Versus New Joe

2011-07-06T03:28:00.000-07:00

Before

If having swag was a crime
Arrest me,
Throw away the keys
I'll do the time.......

After

A bullet wont reverse, just because your wearing Gucci
The tip of the knife will still penetrate through Louis V.

So i guess...True swagger's about, how you carry youself
Not the Fendi scarf, Rolex watch or the Gucci belt.

As for me.........you might catch me in Primark
Cah ive realised, the most important thing is the condition of my heart

A Chosen Generation

2011-07-04T07:43:00.000-07:00

Was just talking to one of my uni sisters, about this whole dating/marriage malarky! The whole topic of kissing during dating came up, to which she said....

its funny that it appears to be a strange concept even to christians
i think God is calling us as a generation to raise up a standard and be different especially in this day and age... it shud be normal

Cant have put it any better

Kudos Sandra!

Tick Tock

2011-07-02T10:56:00.000-07:00

I got a call last night from a young wife, who was worried coz her husband was home a little late. He'd left his phone and car at home!!! It was sad to hear her getting distressed, but at the same time it was beautiful. It was love in practice! We decided we were gonna pray for his safe return, literally within 2 secs he knocks on the door!

The relief in her voice...................EPIC!

This is what i want! Wife and kids who get worried when im out late! Calling up my friends and all! My mum gets like that with me now!!!! And im 22!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It used (and still sometimes does) grind my gears, when she used to get so worried! But now i sorta appreciate it! I kno peeps that can go away for a while without their parents batting an eyelid!

I guess im loved!

Lemar sums up the feeling of missing your partner! Av a listen mate

"My baby will be siting, waiting, longing, holding on for me, while the time goes tick tock, tick tock"

Smooches x

Trust............

2011-07-01T06:18:00.000-07:00

what is it????????

Your work colleague, giving you their bank card/pin to buy them lunch! I kno ppl in my church who wouldnt do that....